Saw my mentor yesterday at office.. never forgot what he said before... find someone who complement you because when you are looking for someone who completes you, you'll just be shattered. Make yourself a full circle first before looking for someone. That way, when that someone leaves, you won't be shattered although there will be pieces of the circle that has broken away.. The time that he said that, I'm still alone in my life, coming to terms with everything that's happening around me, making peace with my past, figuring what I really wanted to do with my life.. Piece by piece, I found these things and finally having a vague view of everything.. This was 2 months past the time I met him, the one I'm with right now..
He was a different man from those I usually met in my circle or more so to say, he was not the type you'd see in my circle.. He had an aura that until now I'm still having a hard time to figure out.. Felt like I still don't know him enough... Charge it to being brought up differently? (everyone is.....) or to the different people we've met? (same thing....) The day I decided to be with him, I finally have an answer to myself that even if he will leave one day, I'll still be alright (perfectly alright..?)
This was kind of like a thinking I have held on to until now that I'm thinking is it really true..? Fast forward to being in a relationship for a few months, there were times I cried because I'd miss him so much. There were times that a mere mention of his ex's would make me jealous. There were times I don't know if I had made the right decisions.. Is it that loving him changed how I think about things. From the time I had thought about this until now, is it that, well, I'm still a circle from the very start,, but that I will get broken piece by piece eventually...? And now the question is, will I still be the whole same self that I used to be when the day come that we part ways. I don't know if he had come full circle in his life by this time or there's still part of him that is still holding on to another circle.. I hate to think of having to part ways, but better think of the worst than to expect the best.. (right..?)
Till now, I would still agree that one should be a complete person first before finding someone that complement him/her.. But quite a paradox... What really would happen after finding a person that complement you and after parting ways, would you still be a complete person...?
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